Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Am I Turning Into An Idiot?

When you are diagnosed with anything, whether it is as simple as having a sty, or what I have Fibromyalgia, one of the first things you do is research what can start to happen.  One of the things I came across is Fibro Fog.  I didn't realize it meant that I was going to be a bumbling idiot on certain days.

Is it just me?

There are days that I forget everything, my phone, my wallet, keys, anything that I am suppossed to have with me.  I have spoken to doctors and they suggest writing lists.  I have tried it, and it works if you remember to bring the lists with you.  My daughter actually wrote a list and taped it to the door of things that I forget on a regular basis.  I went to an award ceremony for both of my children and I placed the camera by my phone so that I would not forget it, guess what I forgot both.  That was the second time that day I had forgotten something. 

Forgetting items at home, although annoying I can laugh off.  What irks me is when I forget words, train of thought, or what I am doing.  I have been in middle of conversations and forgotten simple words such as, spoon, teach, making the bed.  When I am looking at whoever I am speaking to and have to pause because I have forgotten a word, I feel so foolish.  Everyone gets distracted and forgets what they were suppossed to do or what the point of their story is, when it happens multiple times a day, then what do you do?  I used to be able to carry on a conversation with wit and intelligence, now I am lucky if I can carry a conversation with remembering all the words. 

What do you do? 

I have chosen to laugh it off.  However, I wish someone would have explained to me that I was going to be an absolute idiot at times.