Pain - What Would You Do?

For the last few weeks, I have driven, travelled and tested my body more than I should have, nor would recommend for a person who does not have Fibro, let alone have Fibro. 

It was completely worth it, as I was privileged enough to spend a few last weeks, days and moments with a wonderful, compassionate, true lady. 

I will admit, (I hope that my doctor is not reading this, I will never hear the end of it) that the exercise and diet I have been faithful to did help, and I do have to get back to it.  Without it, or if it had been a year ago, 6 months ago I would have crashed. 

After two weeks, of no sleep, travelling at least two hours a day, still having kids to take care of, and the mental stress, the pain was just building and building and getting more and more unbearable. 

Then you start thinking.  What would you do to keep going?  What would you do to get rid of the pain?  Especially when you need immediate relief.

I have tried so many painkillers and none have worked.  But you are always willing to try them again and again in the hopes, in the faith that it will work.  This is why I do not keep any on hand, when you are desperate enough your actions will mimic your desperation.  I was tempted to call the pharmacy for the fentanol, the codeine, the morphine....I just need a little relief. 

I have done this before, sitting at work, in front of the computer, praying my fingers would bend without sending the chill of pain through my body every time I moved them.  Take the bottle of morphine out of my purse and pop a few, and nothing happened.

I stopped this when I realized it could lead to additional problems.

There are many options that are out there for pain management.  Narcotics, nerve numbing, meditation, massage, acupuncture, reflexology, and so on....  But with Fibro it is hit and miss, and what happens when you have tried the majority and it is a miss, or when you need immediate relief.

I didn't always, and I am very proud of myself that I did not succumb to the drugs this time.  However, will I in the future?

What have you done in desperation, in hopes to get rid of the pain?